My sister is lovely. She is liberal, and feminist, and nice to all people. She is very anti-transphobia. I have a confession. Just this once, my beautiful, kind, loving sister is wrong.
Since I am firmly of the opinion that ‘gender’ is a patriarchal nonsense of the highest order, I cannot understand how people could be ‘trans’ something that people made up, and changes with society over time depending of fashions and needs. I am extremely envious of those who state ‘I always felt like a woman inside’, because I’ve been a woman for 31 years, and I’m not sure I have a clue what ‘feeling like a woman inside’ is.
I understand those with gender dysphoria suffer, and I am sorry that societies’ gender norms cause suffering. I hate all forms of bullying, and want everyone to live to be true to themselves. No one deserves bullying, violence, or discrimination.
I am hugely disturbed by the death knell of women’s sport. http://www.independent.co.uk/sport/olympics/olympics-to-allow-more-transgender-athletes-to-compete-in-the-games-after-removing-surgery-a6829691.html
This big question here is ‘what is a woman’? It’s far more than wearing a frock. It’s not about having a lump of mammary tissue behind each nipple, ask any woman who’s had a bilateral mastectomy. My tits do not make me female, and adding a pair of tits surgically or otherwise does not make a man a woman. They’re just tits. Useful for feeding babies, nice accessories when getting intimate, but they do not define whether I’m a woman.
It’s more than having a functional vagina. Women who are post surgery for difficult post-birth trauma, or who have prolapses, or suffered female genital mutilation etc are not made lesser women. Nor are those who have hysterectomies, and/or oophorectomies. Women are not defined by being humans who have somewhere for a penis to fit. Women with Turner’s syndrome are still women.
Nor are women humans without a penis. A man who chops off his penis is still a man.
It’s not about your hormones- post menopausal women don’t stop being women, neither do women with PCOS (high testosterone). Men on oestrogen are men on oestrogen.
Often, I hear ‘It’s about how you identify’. I identify as a size 2 waif with a metabolism that allows me to live entirely on Dairy Milk and yoghurt. Sadly, my identification doesn’t make me any thinner.
So, I’ve had a think. I’ve been told before ‘you’re only partially feminine’, and told by my mother growing up ‘you know, I think you’re really a man!’ (She didn’t mean it kindly. On second thoughts, the first comment wasn’t meant kindly, either.) The first comment was explained more- the fact I wear skirts, but rarely heels, that I can sew, but can’t do make up, caused great confusion.
The latest obsession with Transgender appears to be more about Trans-stereotyping than anything to do with xx vs xy chromosomes. Just see all the “I knew my son, Huck, was really a girl inside because he played with dolls. Now he dresses in pink and we call him Trudy.”Urm, no, let toys be toys! (That’s a whole different rant…) Caitlyn Jenner’s transition appears to have been far more about her posing seductively than about her wondering why she’s suddenly paid less, or patronised by car salesmen.
So, what makes me ‘feel like a woman inside’? Here are a few things, I’m sure there are more.
- The gender pay gap.
- Being asked at job interviews how I will manage with my home commitments?
- Recalling how I was taught at primary school that we shouldn’t do full press ups, as we would damage our ovaries.
- Sexual harassment on public transport. In the street. At work. As a teenager in my first job.
- Having your dress as a teenager dictated by the need to ‘not distract the boys, or make male teachers feel awkward’.
- Being socially conditioned that my life would never be complete until I had children.
- All that Disney princess shit.
- “When you get married…”
- Getting thrush.
- Having a dress code that is twice as long as for those with xy chromosomes
- Being blamed for the downfall of the NHS.
- Being blamed for the downfall of society and family values.
- Being blamed for having sex, getting pregnant, keeping the baby. (However, see point 6 above).
- Being judged for being a temptress, while your partner is seen as innocent.
- Being ignored, in favour of my male junior.
- Having people assume my male junior is my boss.
- Being given the wrong job title, because I’m female.
- People assuming I’m not as competent as my male colleagues.
- Car salesmen. Say no more.
- Plumbers, builders, etc treating me like I’m a bit simple. It’s a vagina. It didn’t steal any IQ points.
- My fertility and future family plans being considered small talk to ask me about in the office. Fuck off and get your nose out.
- Brought up to view my surname as never really associated with my identity, as I would change it on marriage, anyway.
- “You know this is economics, not home economics, don’t you?”- happened to a friend of mine.
- Marriage certificates ask for your father’s name, but not the mother’s. This is to help family historians in the future, apparently. Because women don’t matter to history.
- Coming second on SmallPerson’s birth certificate.Despite the fact I pushed SmallPerson out of my vagina.
So, there. Man, I feel like a woman. It starts at birth-http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20141117-the-pink-vs-blue-gender-myth “Women treat the exact same babies differently” based on whether they think they’re caring for a boy or a girl. I have grown up drenched in female stereotyping. It goes through primary school, secondary school, into university and the work place. I don’t think that’s something you can ‘feel inside’, it’s something you live.
I accept those with gender dysphoria are living in their own hell. And I wish we could fight societies gender stereotypes together, rather than fall out over this.
But women are women, and they haven’t had it easy. Now, it’s all about the men who ‘feel like women inside’, and they’re allowed in our spaces, and now our sport. The upper limit for testosterone in women in sport is now 3 times the upper range for xx women, and only just below the normal range for men. This means next to no xx women would have a testosterone that high, but some xy (non-trans, feel like men) men could, as the reference range is usually where 95% fall.
Women now have to let men who feel like women in their toilets, their changing rooms, their safe spaces, prisons, and now their sports teams. No way will women be able to compete with men with low testosterone, no way, especially since the stereotyping experienced early on starts them at such as disadvantage, even before you include a wider pelvis, bouncing bosoms, periods to manage, shorter tendons and less muscle bulk.
Being a woman is not about tits. It’s not about your bits. It’s not about how you feel. It’s about how society has conditioned you. If you want to compete in women’s sports, first survive girl’s PE lessons.